Prey

A puddle of indigo

Just leaked out of me

*well, that's embarrassing*

not really.

That's me.

I jumped,

and they said,

"You're Bold"

and

"You're Brave"

So I smile to cover the shame that is leaking out of me.

So it doesn't mix with the indigo.

A bit of the Atlantic finds its way to my tear ducts,

and then is has found my lips.

drip.

drop.

The music notes are green.

Such a deep green.

But when the

cobalt

that flows through my veins

to the vessels of my heart

escapes my body;

that is when I am raw.

And to Think Thursdays were my Favorite

It was a day,

when I had to remind myself,

"Nobody died. This is going to be okay. At least nobody died".

And then I tell myself,

"TomorrowisFriday TomorrowisFriday youcanmakeit TomorrowisFriday".

Except,

Then I remember that somebody did die.

Then I remember that people are always dying.

And then I remember that Friday is just one day closer to dying.

And people die on Fridays all the time.

And now, I'm not making myself feel better.

And then I think,

why should I feel good?

Everyone is dying.

Always.

My Dad is The Bird Guy

Chick-a-dee-dee-dee-dee.

Bob-white, Bob-white.

Kill-deer, kill-deer, kill-deer.

Whip-poor-will, whip-poor-will.

Lil-lee-lee-lee-lee.

Lil-lee, lil-lee.

When do I get my wings?

January = ?

So I said,

"I have that same ipod."

And You said,

"What is a Snickerdoodle?"

In October.

I said,

"Want to come back for hot chocolate?"

And You said,

"I want to live in New York City."

In November.

And then I said,

"My grandma came home from the hospital last night."

And You said,

"The Bee Gee's? Really?"

In December.

We went on the swings and we went on the bus and we went in the halls and we went in the street and You said,

"I like to sing, but not in front of people."

and You said,

"You can have the rest of this, it's too chocolate-y."

and You said,

"I have read The Catcher in the Rye so many times."

And then today You leaned on me and we both smiled and I pet your flannel shirt and said,

"I like this."

Then we watched people getting hurt on that video and it was 7:10 am but we laughed and laughed.

Have You Ever Listened to Two Songs at the SAME Time?

*Smile*

*Smile*

*wave*

*wave*

*<3*

(oops I missed my cue)

*<3*

(sorry it was late)

Now how about somebody asks me how it feels lately?

You know how it feels?

There is a thunderstorm inside my stomach.

It is going CRAZY in there.

And honestly, it feels really

blehhh

and

mehhh

and

echhh

in there.

And there is thunder in my head.

and it makes it so hard to THINK with everything booming around.

And the lightning flashes in my eyes.

OVER and OVER.

Just lay off, ya know?

I'm trying to READ and stuff.

Sometimes things are so simple and nice and then the clouds start to move into my brain and they're not scary, depressing clouds, they just make it so... CLOUDY in there.

It's just...

It's just...

WHY IS THE WEATHER SO OUT OF MY CONTROL???

It Was Dark and Windy, Anyway.

Dying to dream.

Dreaming to die.

Maybe

we

should

stay

home

stay

close

and

leave

the

light

on

tonight.

Ponytail

I hugged a tree

and I was 5

and I was 13

I breathed in and I smiled

and it was then

and it is now.

The clouds move so fast sometimes.

Page after page on the calender

flip, flip, flip.

November is a car window and a rusty bike

November is bleachers

and a little hustle-

and a little -bustle

And November is harmony

and mostly air.